Thursday, 30 October 2008

  • Tougher than a rhino, vicious like a wolverine

    Please read and comment even though its long. Thanks.

     

    Life is a mysterious thing. Correct? You never know what tomorrow will throw at you. Life is something that holds the key to everything. Too bad everything didn’t have the key to life. Life is a game of risk and luck. You can risk it all, or you can risk nothing at all. You can be super lucky, or down on it. Life is the Most-Known Unknown that has possibly ever existed. You know it exists but you don’t know everything about it. Nobody does. That is why every life is completely unique. There is nobody in the world who’s autobiography should look like anothers. Everyone would have different memories, different outlooks, different events that shaped them.

     

    What shapes your life? What experiences have you gone through that have made you stronger? Recently I have gone through a huge event that is going to end up shaping my life. It already has in a lot of ways. Some people know what it is and some people don’t. I’m not going to go into a ton of details. But it has shaped my life in a ton of good ways. I don’t see any ways that it has been bad. And that’s great. But it has come to an end. And that is the saddest thing. But yet. Life goes on. It always will and always does.

     

    Guys, what happens when you go from the top of the world to holding the weight of the world? Like one moment everyone else is holding you up and the next you are holding everyone else up. Cause that is what it feels like for me. I wanted to name this note “Stronger than a rhino, vicious like a wolverine” because that’s my world right now. Like the next person who pulls my trigger, I’ll unleash a world of violence on them. They aren’t even going to know what hit them. I feel like withdrawing into my own personal space and comfort and saying screw the world. Anyone else been there? You know, you are just one person in this huge friggin world. How does one person change all that. How does one person gain attention from the entire world. By becoming the worlds biggest revolutionary its ever seen. And it starts by the way we treat people. PEOPLE GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD! You don’t treat people like they are below you. No one is. You treat people like they are royalty and they’ll behead you if you don’t. You should treat everyone like that. EVERYONE! Because if everyone did that then you know what kind of world we would live in? One that would have far less crime. A world where people are less lazy and more sociable. A more personal world.

     

    To live is to forgive. In order to live the best life you possibly can you have to forgive people. People who hurt you. People you don’t want to forgive. People you don’t even know that will end up doing something in the future. God forgave you so you can forgive them. Period. Some things are just so hard. You know what? Everything that is hard will only make you stronger when you overcome them. When you don’t let anything get you down. When you put your entire trust in God. Because you know what? LIFE is HARD. LOVE is HARD. FRIENDSHIPS are HARD. RELIGION is HARD. WORK is HARD. SCHOOL should be HARD. If you think any or all of these are easy and they don’t need work then you are sadly mistaken. All of these you have to work at. Nothing comes easy from these things. What friendship has never come across a little bridge? What Relationship has never had  a point where they second guess things? What person doesn’t think that school is stupid at one point? How many times are people turing away from religion because it seems like it takes work? All of those should take work. That is what makes them WORTH THE WHILE.

    People are always messaging me and asking me questions. Like why write about this or say it like that. And I say everything to just point out the Lord in everything. One way or another. Because if I can change one person’s thinking about him, maybe save one person from eternity in Hell then maybe I could do it more and more. Like a domino. He does have a plan for everyone in life. He is destiny. He is karma. And he really doesn’t restrict you from doing anything you already do. He restricts How you do it. Or Why you do it. Would you rather life for Him and then find out it isn’t true and have lived a basically good life? Or would you rather live in a life of sin and find out that He is real? Not even atheists can argue that one. Because it doesn’t say you have to believe it just good and bad. Plain and simple.

     

    When it comes to the topic of love I thought that I had stuff figured out. And I still think that I do. I think that others don’t. I don’t think that others are bad at it. I don’t think that they are incapable of feeling it or knowing what it is. I think that they don’t understand the impact that it should have upon someones life. When you say it. You should mean it. Not everyone does but you should. When you say it, you should feel something along with it. When you have it, you should never let it go. When you know it, it only grows. Love is something no one has been able to accurately 100% describe. Its impossible. Because as humans we are incapable of completely understanding it. Its such a big thing that we just can’t handle it all. If we felt what God feels for us then I’m pretty sure some of our hearts would stop. I think we would have a love-overload and die…Happy… haha. Love is something that people ask themselves everyday if they have. They ask is it right. Do I love or do I don’t. Love is a feeling that can completely incapacitate me if I let it. Seriously no joke. I can get so caught in it that I don’t see anything else. It gives me something to focus upon. And when I don’t have it, I can focus on the straight bad things. Making me vicious like a wolverine. Making me just want to punch people and kick kittens (sorry bad example) but seriously, I feel horrible. I start fights, I absolutely dwell on the bad things of life. And then I play a pity game and just start blaming things. This and that and even myself. When you have that one person who just means so much. How can you let them go? Well. I’ll tell you when I find the answer. You let them go… bye… accepting that it’s Gods will. Because he does what is necessary to shape and mold your life for the future things to come.

     

    The point of writing this was mainly to vent. The second main thing was to get some comments and start a little conversations. For those of you that don’t know me. Get to know me. For those of you who have problems. Talk to me. For those of you who love, keep it. For those of you who hate, lose it. For those of you who are happy, don’t let anything get you down. For those of you who are hopeless, God will give you hope, For those of you who read this, comment. Thank You.

     

    PRAY FOR THE WORLD, PRAY FOR STRENGTH, BE A LEADER, GIVE HELP TO THE HELPLESS, GIVE HOPE TO THE HOPELESS, SHINE A LIGHT FOR THE LOST, SHOW THE WAY FOR THOSE WHO WANDER, PROTECT THOSE WHO ARE UNDER ATTACK, LOVE LIKE THERE IS NO ONE ELSE, FIX THOSE WHO ARE BROKEN, AND ABOVE ALL… LIVE! ~ Jay Parker

     

    Dedicated to my wonderful friends who are always by my side to talk to, to counsel with to love to trust and who are always by my side. When I look to the East, I see Sami, Maegen, and Trevor. When I look to the West I see Taylor, Sean, and Adrienne. You guys encompass me. You guys support me when I’m weak and provide the support I need to make it through anything that gets thrown at me. And when you guys have problems know that you can always come talk to me. I would never turn any of you away. :P And lastly, Tara, even though we are no longer a couple. I hope that we’ll remain good friends. I don’t want to not have you in my life. Because you did make a huge influence upon my life. All of my friends have. And that’s what keeps me going. I hope that all of you will always be in my life. We’ll be like the the the… COOL KIDS CLUB: Population Us. Haha. Love you guys. Talk to me and comment!! Peace

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